Half way point

20 weeks today, I cant believe i'm already half way through this pregnancy. It's been a tough one (I thought the last was hard) but the vomiting is a shocker and collapsing the other week just takes the biscuit. Hopefully the second half will be smoother sailing.
I'm technically not on maternity leave anymore, just plain old annual leave. I'm dreading going back to work but it's not for long. I've not left Noah for more than a few hours so full days will be a shock to the system.

Noah is cracking on, 10 months tomorrow and already on the move. He walked over to the health visitor this week she looked so surprised. He still crawls as the preferred mode of transport lol. He looks so funny on the move as he's still a tiny thing, im hoping next time he's weighed he will of passed the 18lb mark. Proper independent now too, likes to do things himself and only gets cuddly when tired or poorly.

Lots happening over the next few weeks with my next scan (get to find out flavour of baby) and then off to the children's hospital to see if Noah needs surgery. So need to keep fingers crossed for a happy health scan and a no to surgery for Noah.

1 Month On

I've been single a month now, it's one month since I found out family didnt matter to my ex and that he was having sex with some 'slag' I can't call her anything but since she knew I had a baby and one on the way. How desperate is a women to do that to another. Men are easy (ok not all are) but it takes a certain type of women to do that. Certainly one with no morals.
In that month i've surprised myself that I dont miss him, i'm upset he ripped apart Noah's life just like he did to his other children. I'm upset my new baby will come into this world wit just mummy there but we will do it. Noah is going to be an amazing big brother and we will be fine as a family.

I have had the chance to see the new baby twice this week on scans and they are so cute, a complete little wriggle, even more so than Noah was which I didnt think was possible. I'm so excited to find out if they are a little boy or girl. Not many weeks till we find out.

Leaving my home was a fast decision but it was so the right thing to do because it means these children will grow up in a happy home, with someone who loves them and will do anything for their family.

Starting out

Well i've been single now since the 9th of June, this year looks lie it will be a rollercoaster and didnt feel up to writing about it before now. My ex has decided he'd sleep with another girl while with me which didnt bode well, especially as im pregnant. So now it just Noah, bump and me. I know it wont be easy but thats life sometimes and we just have to move on and get on with life. I know he seems to think it's all my fault but he can believe what he likes. I had commitment just a pity he doesnt take his responsibilities and commitments as seriously. You know in life when things get tough that the people who matter stick by you and those who are selfish stick by themselves.

Noah has come along amazing and just in the last week has learnt to sit up on his own, crawl forwards, stand with furniture and shouts mam. I feel so privileged to have such a lovely happy healthy little boy.

I'm feeling quite positive at the moment and I think everything happens for a reason and I feel much happier than I have for months. i know there will be good and bad days but i'm trying to keep all days happy and smiling for Noah as he deserves a happy childhood as does his little brother or sister.... oooh cant wait to find out which it will be (not that many weeks to wait really)

Hopefully will get to write here more often now, time for a drink and choccie before Noah wakes from his nap.

Nappies

Noah wears reusable nappies and we have sucess and epic fails sometimes. It's hard to pick suitable nappies as there are so many types and designs out there, from the totally gorgeous the the simply practical. I have discovered they are quite addictive, I love picking up a bargain and i'm also itching to have some custom made. Noah has many many nappies. I wouldn't dare type how many lol, but he doesn't have enough as we need to get into night nappies rather than using disposables. Also it certainly cheers you up buying a bit of fluff.
I think I will be on first name terms with my new posties soon, poor guy who walks I feel for him as we live up a big hill and his bag always seems stuffed with stuff for Noah and myself :)
I have a love for nappies called Itti Bitti D'lish but we keep getting leaks :( this isn't good as I have 20 of these nappies, they are soft, furry, and come in some cute colours and designs. I popped a booster in his moo moo one today and if that doesn't solve the problem we will have to part with them, here he is sporting the moo one.
I definitely prefer shopping for Noah as I dont have to worry as he looks so good in everything, do all mothers feel like this?

I'm hoping the postie brings at least one of the night nappies i've ordered as I neeeeeed to try them out. All in the name of research (not addiction)

Where has the time gone?

I was posting on a babyandbump today and realised Noah is 5 months today! Where has the time gone? It seems like only yesterday I was being rushed off to theatre for an emergency section, so I thought I would share my birth story I wrote just after he was born


Ok so a few vital stats to start us off.

Noah Sebastian was born on the 22nd October at 1.55 am, weighing a healthy 7lbs 9oz (so nothing like the humongous baby we thought he was!

Now grab a as this is long....... ive tried to be concise but I was pretty out of it so hopefully it's all in order.

On Monday 22nd I went into hospital at 8am for a planned early induction. I was 39 weeks but with BP problems, excess fluid and an expected big baby, oh and being on blood thinners. The planned induction was to reduce risks to mummy and baby.

So we go down to delivery suite and I was examined. The midwife said things looked favourable as cervix was soft and I was 1cm dilated, so gel was inserted and back off to the ward for things to happen. Nothing happened all day and they were too busy to repeat the gel.

So we get to tuesday and another gel is put in place as not much as happened to my cervix overnight. So another day sat on the ward. OH put the tens on me as I was contracting, but nothing too uncomfortable. By late evening the contractions although not strong were every 3 minutes so back down to delivery to be checked. My cervix was still only 1 1/2 cm but couldn't have another gel as I was contracting too much. There went back to the ward to see if either the contractions would stop or if they'd progress and i'd dilate. I spent quite a few hours uncomfortable and loving my tens machine. The contractions slowly stopped overnight. I was getting a little frustrated by now.

Wednesday came and I was taken to delivery again. No progression so we expected another gel but next minute the doctor is saying i've broken your waters. I was upset this wasn't discussed with us, my oh was livid that she didnt discuss anything with us. This now meant I was to stay on delivery and be given a drip to get things going.

So my labour 'starts' at 11.55 am and the drip brings the contractions fast and irregular, they keep altering the drip amount but after every couple of contractions they were doubling in intensity. After several hours of the contractions varying they started coming every minute. I was struggling with just the tens but the midwife said she didn't recommend anything else as pain relief yet. She said G&A was best after 7cm So i'm lying there contracting by the minute zapping myself with the boost on my tens thinking surely i'm dilating with all these contractions. I'm suffering from faint spells and vomiting but more drugs to settle them help. Baby seems ok but HB drops occasionally on some contractions.

So its time to examine me again and i'm hopeful as these contractions, boy I know the drip makes them intense but im sure this type of strong frequency was due to come in the later stages. When examined i've dilated only another 1/2 cm and people seem more concerned about how this is going. A consultant anaesthetist comes to see me and gives me drugs to try stop the vomiting and he advises for an epidural (the last thing I wanted) but at this point i'd been contracting almost all day at a hard pace and was getting exhausted The epi helps loads and I feel contractions but pain is almost gone.

2-3 hours pass by and i'm in agony (looks like the epi has failed) its rechecked and its slipped slightly but should still work. Its topped up with stronger drugs and i re-examined. Now im still only 3cms. Doctors come in to discuss possible options and as baby still seems happy they say they will leave me to contract until 11.30pm and reassess then. As the time approaches im hoping and wishing things will be progressing, the epi still not working so im on G&A. Then everything changed I develop chest pains as though im being crushed. The room is suddenly full of doctors, midwifes and anaesthetist. Im re-examined, ECG is done, more bloods. Its all a bit of a whirlwind. Then I hear the last thing I want to. I need a section now.

They had to phone my family as father had anaesthetic problems before and they wanted to cover all bases in case I needed more than the epi.

I'm rushed to theatre, and they start to top up the epi but its patchy. They give me most drugs they can but its not working. They get all the sheets up but I can feel the tweezers pinchiing me, They say I cant have a spinal as they dont think it will work. This means a general aneasetic. I was distraught, poor oh was taken out of theatre and im knocked out. We both knew I was bleeding easier due to the blood thinners i'd been on and the doctors had already been through the possible need for blood transfusions or worst case scenario a hysterectomy if they couldn't stop any bleeding.

I find out when im in recovery afterwards Noah was floppy when born and they had to get him breathing and when they had knocked me out they struggled to intubate me so for several minutes I managed to cause a bit of a flurry as they tried to get a tube down. (I now have it in all my notes if I need a general its to be done with a consultant anaesthetist

So poor oh has been through the wringer not knowing if we would both make it. Thankfully both mummy and baby are fine and even though it was beyond painful and scary. Noah is the most wonderful precious little man.



So here is a picture of Noah the day we brough him home from hospital and this second picture was taken yesterday.

Nappies

Well i'm one of 'those' mums as some people would say, you know the eco conscious cloth nappy breast feeding mummies.

Anyway I tried a new type of nappy this week.The Bumgenius flip. Now i've been using flips a few weeks now and love them but I took a delivery of the disposable flip inserts and i'd heard some bad things about them so was dubious about trying them. I was impressed when I unpacked one, lovely and soft and even though it gets throuwn away it didnt feel at all like a sposie nappy. So in I popped it and fed my little man. Anyway 3 hours later we chaned the nappy and it held up very well. Noah is a heavy wetter but this insert stood the test, it didnt smell bad, it didnt look saturated and hadn't bunched up or leaked. I'm quite impressed. So i'm loving my flip nappies although so not as cute as my itti bittis.


I need to keep a control of my nappy love as im sure it's becoming an obsession, although my latest purchase isn't a nappy it's these gorgeous reusable wipes and funky bag by Monkey Foot. *drools*

Good Morning world

Well i'm sat here trying to be motivated to clean the house and managing to be completely unsuccessful. I took delivery of Dan's new purchase today a lovely Nikon D90 and a new lens. Must say wasn't impressed at first when he told me what he bought (dont think the stress of unpaid maternity leave is doing me any favours) Anyway camera has already arrived and only me is here so battery is on charge and i've already been playing with the new lens (have to check it works right) lol he did say I could im not that evil.

So all ive managed to do today is play online, read a few forums and hunt down some good blogs so if you fancy a good read and some good giveaways check out these blogs

Sunnydaytodaymama

Currently doing a give away of mummy milk rocks goodies, might have to buy some BFing promotional goodies.

Iheartfaces

Just discovered this blog too, full of info on taking photo's general hints and tips and photo challenges, go take alook.

Right time for more work (ie surfing)